the new era..

this is the beginning of a new era..a free era..an era of exploration...

i love you. i won't forget that. i need to figure out what i want. i need to find what makes me happy. we need to be apart for this to happen. i need to explore, meet new people, have new options. you love me but you aren't fully in it. i need someone whos fully in it and whose willing to fight and not just give up. you said i'm nothing with out a boy. you're right. which hurts. which is why i need to do this for me. i need to be strong and i need to figure everything out before i commit to anything again. i don't want you out of my life completely. i still want you around. i still want to talk to you and be there for you and have you there for me. i just need to look at whats out there. i need someone that is there 100% and makes me a priority, even if its just to kill eachother.. i need to have someone that relys on me as much as i rely on them and that wants me just as much aswell. your great but your idea of love and mine are different. we need to just step back. i need to explore my options.

love isn't supposed to be pain. love is supposed to be happy. love shouldn't cause hurt. love should be great and joyful and make you smile, not make you cry. i need to love and be happy.